So it's 2:25 am. Officially April 30th. Sunday night/Monday morning. I have school soon. Eck. My mom and sister are in Vermont now, sleeping over for a college orientation thing. I think my sis is gonna go to the college; Bennington.

Hmm. Well thing's are going well. My hair is chocolate brown. A new color since January, when I dyed it red. I think I look more dignified and handsome with brown hair. (It's not like my natural hair color; no way.) I want to start looking more 'dignified' - not preppy - just more mature yet sleek. Does that make sense?

I feel like I'm sort of out-growing the slouchy phase. I mean, I still go to bed really late, and sometimes miss brushing my teeth... but appearance wise. I've gots to spruce it up! And once my braces are off, I'm sure I'll look better. (Cuter, maybe? Haha.) I don't think I want to act more mature in school. My craziness will remain the same. Haha, school would be WAY too boring if I was overly-polite and cool. Psh. I've gotta be dumb and out there. I'm always gonna keep that. I just want to look more grown up.

I'm going to wear clothes that are more suiting for high school. Not awkward middle school styles. I feel as I'm in HS, my ideas are constantly fluctuating. Not in a hypocritcal way, just in a positive, interesting way. My friend Evan annoys me sometimes, cause he copies my style sorta. I wear sandals and socks. And he so copied me.

Ah, I sound dumb, but it's true! Lol. He's a good friend of mine. Best friend - I think. Kids at this age don't stay the same; so being with friends with people fades in and out.
It's 2:33 am.
But yeah. I want to lose weight. I've BEEN wanting to. During Passover I definitely felt lighter; and I'm not FAT... I just want to be like, nice and skinny. Is Zac Efron a deserving comparison? Cause he's skinny, and is close to my age. It's not like I'm gonna choose come 20-something guy who works out.

Eh, I shouldn't compare myself to someone though. That's all Hollywood. This is REALITYwood. But someday I hope to be involved in an artistic speciality that has some place in H-Wood. It just appeals to me... I've always felt like I have the something that I could put out there for people. Whether it be singing, acting, or even being a model.

I don't know. Like, in high school, college and career is touched upon so much. Especially taking a business cource; we're constantly talking about body language, communication, interviews, ETC. So it'll be a long road if I even make it to California. But I definitely wanna try it. I can't just sit at a desk my whole life. I have to go out and LIVE. While I'm in my 20s. I wanna meet people; have sex; socialize; have fun; be responsible; stay in contact with family; etc.

Just live. LIVE.
Not stay in my house all day after school ends. I mean, I go to New Haven Monday and Thursday; for violin lessons. Also go to Makom on Wednesdays, from 7 pm - 9 pm in Woodbridge. On the weekends, I deservingly sleep in (USUALLY...) and chill around the house, leaving homework to the last minute; a habit I've adopted since like 8th grade.

It's 2:40 am. I have a history project to finish. It's pretty fuckin' wack. Haha. Just busy work. Okkk. Well this is fun writing in. I hope to take more pictures. Some of me and my brown hair.
Haha

Peace